I am alone

Yes, this Christmas and New Year celebration, I am alone.

The previous years were fine because even if I was alone, my old residence has a rooftop. By 12 am, I could just go up and observe, appreciate and see all the fireworks in the night sky. But this year, there is no way I could do those things again.

I am not sad. Denial? Maybe. But honestly, I am not sad. I don't know why. Calloused? Perhaps...