I Could Not Ask For More

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see,
The smile upon your face

These are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments,
I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are,
Is everything to me

These are the moments,
I know heaven must exist,
These are the moments,
I know all I need is this,
I have all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me...

I could not ask for more than the love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for...
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more

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I have been listening to this song for quite some time already yet it didn't make an impact in me not until I read the lyrics of the song. What struck me most is the line, "I have all I've waited for, and I could not ask for more..." Wow! Very beautiful... In my life now, I find these words so true. In all aspects, I could not ask for more...

Ever since I was young, I have always been a people-pleaser. I do that because I fear rejection. I fear that if people won't like me, they might not like me forever. I do that too because I do not want some people to dislike me just because I showed them what apparently is a negative trait for them. And so I always try my best to please the people around me, simply by being jolly, happy, and always putting a smile on my face. It is hard for me to say no to peer pressure, and whenever I do so, there is always that guilty feeling in me. That's how I am... a people-person, a very relational being, a people-pleaser.

But looking back in those almost 26 years, in my effort to please everyone around me, I am a failure. Well, I could have succeeded in some, but not in all. I could never please everyone around me, not unless I'm a god! But on the second thought, some people aren't even pleased with God... Man could really be as hard as a stone... Anyway, I was brought to a point of thinking where I was astounded for a moment with this one simple question: Am I happy now despite the failures to please everyone around me?

Oh the drama of life! I could have chosen not to answer that question, but I did try to make amends out of it. So going back to the "looking back" drama, I realized that despite the failures, I am happy with my life now. I realized that I must go through all of those life obstacles in order for me to become who I am now. And I know that there are still a lot of people to meet out there in my world, giving me more opportunities to interact with them.

I am happy now because I have the love of my life... my Lyra. From the crushes in elementary to puppy loves in highschool, I am so much happy being with her. "Every prayer has been answered, every dream I have's come true..." Our relationship is a product of prayer, a product of waiting upon the Lord. And truly in waiting, the sweetness and ecstasy is tantamount. I love my honey so much!

I am blessed with my friends too. I have a lot from different kinds of backgrounds. Diverse, yet they are all the same - my neighbors, classmates from elementary to college, dormmates, churchmates, online friends, orgmates, etc. I love them all. Of course, there are a few who really stand out to be more closer in the heart. And these are the people who I really share my life with. My bestfriend, my best friends, and my gang! "These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive. These are the moments, I'll remember all my life..." To Paul, Eli, Stephen, Therese, Anna, Pawecoy, Roshie, Mcoy, Marc, Shee, Rob, Gem, Tine, Thea, Dong, Hannah.. Life is sweeter with you all!

And of course, I am so much thankful to God with my family. Without them, I couldn't make it to where I am now. Thank you especially to my mama. I just miss her a lot. It's been almost 6 six years since we've last seen each other. My prayer is that one day, we'll all be together, enjoying in this circus that we call life.

Now, am I truly happy? Is this real happiness? I say I am. A lot happier than before. Happiness that overflows from the heart. If I were to measure my happiness, I would just be so overwhelmed.

But can happiness be measured? No and Yes. No, because it can't be quantified. But yes, it can be measured too because one can describe how much happiness he's dealing with. And as for me, I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE!!!


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"You can't live your life for other people... You've got to do what's right for you even if it hurts some people you love." - The Notebook